Understanding through the subconscious.

Exploring my feminine side



Self Preservation: Identifying Leg Traps




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NEW YORK - JUNE 1970:  Blues singer Janis Joplin on the roof garden of the Chelsea Hotel in June 1970 in New York City, New York. (Photo by David Gahr/Getty Images)

NEW YORK – JUNE 1970: Blues singer Janis Joplin on the roof garden of the Chelsea Hotel in June 1970 in New York City, New York. (Photo by David Gahr/Getty Images)


Dream 28 – May 1, 2015


Dystopia, Zombie Post-Apocalyptic Future, Star Cross’d Lovers

(my notes the morning after are usually not this detailed. usually i try to remember just three images of the dream)

Beginning – newbie – steeple motorcycle chase – dashing hero

Saving from zombies

Girl staircase. Next night bids hero farewell sadly in the staircase after gong sounds. Tells him she doesn’t feel like following him. Other warrior girl goes with him.

Cut to Newbie having feast – poor. Hero is really lame. Society dinner. Zombies.

Cut to another zombie chase. Newbie sees zombie pull off mask after trying to attack it – gets surprised – fake zombie gets extremely mad. Long talk after with old wise man. Newbie agrees and understands.

Newbie has talk with old wise man alone. Girl dragged into room with other warrior girl and old wise man. Huge argument ensues over hero. No real threat even exists. Girl wants hero to have normal life. Agreement is made that girl leaves. She cant stand it.

She says bye to hero. Hero is sad. She tells newbie that they are making her leave – she us extremely mad. Meet her outside at new place and steal hero away. Newbie says yes. Girl is taken into other room and is smothered to death.

Old wise man comforts hero and tells him that he knows this happens. New girl is on their way to save. Another girl in grave danger. Hero jumps for joy.

Newbie chats to old wise man about girls scheme. They both laugh. Newbie understands need for safety. Newbie leaves town.

Cut to flashback of girl before hero leaves on training mission. Prays to full moon –

“Let this not be a … Treacherous night… For if it is… I will throw a Japanese stone”

*Sex with hero*

Analysis : TBC


Three new dreams coming soon!

But watch…

Little Nemo’s Adventures in Slumberland




I had a mini dream, where I was kissing Wesley Snipes. I fell asleep watching “Waiting to Exhale.” My favorite scene was with Angela Bassett and Wesley Snipes – they’re strangers in a hotel bar. She’s just been divorced and his wife is on her death bed. They end up sleeping together in a hotel room – with all their clothes on, just falling asleep in each other’s arms. Lovely.

Waiting to Exhale – Bernadine’s Rage Scene

Dream 27 – January 5, 2015


Fear, Anxiety, and Extreme Guilt

I had this very vivid dream last night.

[In the begginning], I was at the top of this skyscraper, at a rooftop party. And when I got into the elevator with two other people, we realized the building was going to fall down. So in order to make it safely to the bottom, we did this odd thing with ropes, where we fastened the elevator to the shaft and kept turning the ropes in circles. To keep momentum going… Like a dreidel. This dream defies the laws of physics in many ways, but whatever…

We make it to the bottom and the building seems to be standing up fine. Apparently you can only tell from the top that the building will crumble soon. A week later I’m walking by the same building on the street, and it just collapses. Blood splatters around me from a dead body falling from a window. It’s reminiscient of 9/11. Horrid.

[In the middle] of my dream, I have a flashback. Of me thinking of that dragon that chased me around my old school. It shatters all the windows and eats people. I remember chasing it outside from the roof and then jumping to safety onto another building’s rooftop. At first it doesn’t see me, but then it does.

[At the end] of my dream I’m back in my adult life where the collapsed building was. I bump into another colleague of mine who was in the elevator shaft with me. I asked them if they called the authorities the night we escaped to warn them. They told me they didn’t and didn’t see the reason why they should have. I’m extremely disappointed and feel guilty and ashamed I didn’t speak out.

Analysis : TBC

Lessons from Whitney Houston

imageThe Greatest Love of All

I decided long ago, never to walk in anyone’s shadows
If I fail, if I succeed
At least I’ll live as I believe
No matter what they take from me
They can’t take away my dignity
Because the greatest love of all
Is happening to me
I found the greatest love of all
Inside of me
The greatest love of all
Is easy to achieve
Learning to love yourself
It is the greatest love of all